heidisaintjames

Pregnancy after loss is super complicated. From the outside, it may look like a fresh start and something this family so desperately needed. Friends and family usually feel excited to see someone they love expecting another baby after such a devastating loss. And while there is definitely hope, there is also so much fear. Pregnancy after loss isn't just another pregnancy. It's carrying a new baby while grieving the one who should already be here. For some moms, it might be learning to trust...

There is no way to prepare for planning your baby’s funeral. It is something no parent expects to face, and yet so many are suddenly asked to make deeply emotional decisions in a very short amount of time. This is not a checklist you have to follow. It is simply a guide to help you think through options you may not even know exist. You deserve to make these decisions in a way that feels right for you, your baby, and your family. Cremation vs. Burial One of the first decisions you may be asked...

On May 4th, Heidi would have turned two. My husband, our 8-month old son, and I spent the day at her grave, bringing flowers and simply being with her. We set up a large umbrella for shade and shared a quiet lunch of tacos, chips, and salsa beside her. We lit candles, sang her happy birthday, and wrote her a birthday card. We looked through photos from when we first met her and talked about her as if she were sitting right there with us. In many ways, she was. Last year, I tried to make...